Stay in California? Let Sports Decide!
The idea here is that I probably want to leave California. It feels like a way out of a personal dead end for me. I might have a mentor out of state who can open doors for me that I’m not opening for myself.
That said, this idea probably has particular appeal for me because I am contractually bound to stay in California for a year, and nothing feeds my massochism like beating myself up for each and every commitment I make. If I decide to do something, I spend the ensuing weeks and months second-guessing my own decision. If Eckhart Tolle is to be believed, this could very well be simply the demented Pain Body feeding on negative energy, as it enjoys doing this periodically. The Pain Body is hungry, and so it eats, and soon it will be done and I’ll be free of this strange twisted way of looking at my own situation. The negativity will dissipate, since it’s the Pain Body that’s stoking it out of proportion with what makes sense. By the way, if I have a Pain Body, it’s likely my parents do too, and when we spend time with each other we probably are that much more likely to provoke it, to allow it to feed on our drama. Whatever! This right here is getting to be WAAAAYYY too personal and dramatic. Hell, I can decide to stay in California forever! That might be the most likely thing! That’s not even the point!
The point IS, I suppose, that a fun thing I think I could do to entertain myself in the meantime is to get REALLY in to California sports. And maybe I could say hey — if these California sports teams are good enough, then and only then I might want to stay in this state and follow them. Of course, it doesn’t matter whether they win championships — it matters if their entertainment value is enough to build community around and get us together. And when I say “get us together,” I mean, can I create enough to community to make myself want to stay and be a part of that?
I mean, what else could all this sports be for if not for community? I mean, for what — profit? I haven’t made any profit yet! And the profit of gambling, that’s zero-sum. But the profit of entertainment and community-building … well, maybe that’s something.
Anyway, this blog post is probably a bit much. One doesn’t lay out their strategy this way. So, great, you want to be a sports blogger. Good for you. Way to put that on the Internet … dork! Hahaha … uhhhh. Whatever! Maybe I’ll do some more sports blogs, that’s all.